Showing posts with label FAST AND DIRTY. Show all posts
Showing posts with label FAST AND DIRTY. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Naked Blokes On Post-It Notes


Remember how not long ago I interviewed Chris Gilmour about his year-long project drawing naked chicks on Post-It notes called Naked Chicks on Post-It Notes? I asked him why naked chicks, and he said: "I tried drawing naked blokes, but it made me feel uncomfortable. I'm going to have to work on that in the future." Now, he is. These days, Gilmour's working on Naked Blokes on Post-It Notes. I'm assuming this project will be a year-long one, too. That's a lot of penises.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Fast & Dirty: Interview: Merkley???


No one will ever accuse Merkley??? of playing by the rules. He is a naked chick photographer and babbling blogger, who, according to the New York Times, "might have amounted to nothing in analog times." Recently, the man with all the question marks self-published 111, a hardbound collection of 111 mostly tattooed nude women who have lounged before his lens. In this latest installment of the Reverse Cowgirl Fast & Dirty interview series, I talked to the man himself about what it's like to be the anti-photographer's photographer.

Reverse Cowgirl: Why Merkley???

Merkley???: Two part answer: Merkley is my surname. Growing up in Utah, common swear words were very, very expensive, so to put me in my place, kids, teachers, clergymen, siblings & bullies would instead antagonistically nasal my own name at me as if it actually meant fuckwad, dipshit, or redhead freckled asshole. I resented their nosey tone so in 1991 I embraced it, you know, kinda like how black people call themselves "the N word" which makes it so when you call them "the N word" it doesn't hurt so bad. I'm basically just like Eminem, only older, beardier and way more N-wordy.

The "???" tacked on at the end comes from my Mormon upbringing. By decree, Mormon households, indeed most religious households worldwide, are required to foster three exclamation point wielding enforcement monkeys, one blind, one deaf and the other mute. Their blind-deaf-muteness in no way hinders them. In fact it aids them in the clubbing the crap out of you with their exclamation points as expressly commanded by the monkey handbook.

Notwithstanding 24 years of exclamation point calluses, one day after a particularly rambunctious beating, self-inflicted I must admit, three big bumps formed at the apex of my dome. But, unlike the hundreds of previous monkey-induced bumps on the head, these bumps didn't deflate. They grew. And grew and grew and grew.

13 days later, out popped three naked little question marked midgets, one with super powered X-ray specs, one with bionic headphones, and one with a really nice microphone. They are pictured on the front page of my website.

Long story short, they hooked me in with their sponge question marks and taught me to see, hear, and speak whatever the fuck I want. Bionically, even! More importantly, they taught me not to beat anyone over the head with rigid exclamation points when it's just as easy to hook them in with sponge question marks. And, even if you do beat someone with a sponge question mark, it doesn't hurt, so go for it.

So, anyway, the "???" is an homage to them. I'm making a book about all that.

RC: How did you get 111 naked chicks to lounge in front of you like 21st century odalisques?

M: I said I was making a coffee table book, and they lined up around the block. People can't resist coffee tables, you know, because of the caffeine.

RC: Recently, the New York Times deemed you a Flickr star who “might have amounted to nothing in analog times” but instead “mastered the Flickr photograph.” Flattered or insulted?

M: Well, ever since the New York Times fired Dan Rather for lying about inhaling pot and getting a hummer from the fat girl, I haven't really paid much attention to them. Katie Couric just doesn't do it for me.

Besides, I thought the "flickr" photograph was supposed to be of a tulip, baby, or your boyfriend on vacation. I'll get around to that eventually, I promise, but for now I'm a little busy taking pictures of naked girls with underrated groceries and gravitationally challenged pets.

RC: You self-published 111???. Why? And what was that process like?

M: After years of beating people over the head with DIY exclamation points, I really had no choice but to DI myself if I wanted to maintain my enormous street cred. But here are the fake Google map directions I'm going to pretend that I used.

1. Head north on Google to "overseas printing" .01 mi
2. Turn west at Lots-O-Crappy-Print-Broker-Websites Dr. 7.3 mi
3. Slight right at Samples & Bids Blvd. 10.9 mi
4. Take exit at Lowball Bids and Bad Samples. .01 mi
5. South to Book Store. 2 mi
6. Check signs for names of GOOD printers & publishers. .08 mi
6. North to Google 4.8 mi
7. Turn east to Hong Kong Bids & Samples 7 mi
8. Keep right at the fork, follow signs to Quality, Reputation & Competitive Price.

Paramount Printing Hong Kong



Seriously, never before has it been so completely possible for artists to connect directly with their own audience sans gatekeepers. The success of my hardheaded silliness should stand as an example of that. Of course the New York Times was right about one thing. I would have never, in fact, I refused "to amount to anything in analog times," standing in line as the meathead doormen made decisions about who got in and who didn't, so I am pretty happy that I found a side door cracked open to a really shitty dive bar called Flickr.

We artists live in the fuck-you-est of times.

I believe self-publishing is the future. Make a blog, and let it lead the way, posting all the beauty you possess inside. Trolls won't inflate your pride or make it easier. Let your commenters' pre-orders remind you how the web can be.

Pre-orders are great and should be part of the plan. Within two weeks of posting a pre-order PayPal link on my blog, I had made enough sales to completely pay for the entire run of 1111 books. I have been in the black since then, so it was totally worth it, and I'm just so glad I didn't give in to temptation and give all that black to someone else. Publishers only pay, like, six percent. DIY gets 100 percent. 100 percent beats six percent 106 percent of the time.

RC: Tell me a true story about you and a naked chick.

M: Oh, but I make pictures to tell those stories.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Fast & Dirty: Interview: Chris Gilmour


Chris Gilmour is a 29-year-old, West London-based artist, who, for nearly a year, has been posting Naked Chicks on Post-It Notes online. The site launched on May 1, 2007, with the goal that every day for one year he'd post images he'd drawn on Post-It notes of naked chicks. 472 naked chicks and nearly a year later, Gilmour has--well, he's posted a lot of naked chicks on Post-It notes. A while back, I linked to one of Gilmour's amazing twists on his Post-It naked chicks project: animated naked chicks on Post-It notes. (See above, and there are more here.) But at the time I didn't properly credit him, and so, not long ago, I found that Mr. Gilmour bore a grudge. So I sent him an email, the subject header of which was "let's make out." Chris seemingly forgave me, and then I asked him if he would let me interview him, and he said yes. Here, Gilmour answers my questions about naked chicks, Post-It notes, and how he fared on another project: the time he set out to shag 100 girls in a year. At the end, I've posted Gilmour's portrait of yours truly on a Post-It note. I may not be naked, but I do appear to be humping a rock. Thank you, Mr. Gilmour, for the interview and letting me post your awesome artwork here.

Reverse Cowgirl: Why Post-Its?

Chris Gilmour: I had a couple of pictures of naked women I'd drawn in the style of user manuals, and I wanted to sling them online. I just needed a neat name for the site. Pictures of Naked Chicks on Post-It Notes sounded great to me, but I think I stole the rhythm from a friend's band who were called Images of Mathematicians on Postage Stamps. It sounded good, so I stole a few blocks of Post-Its from work and started scribbling.

RC: Why naked chicks?

CG: I went through a phase of drawing pictures of cats on Flickr ages ago, but that was kind of boring. Woman are great, though. They have all these curves and shapes and bits and are all different sizes. I think the nudity was just a little bit of shock value. I tried drawing naked blokes, but it made me feel uncomfortable. I'm going to have to work on that in the future.

RC: Can you describe the process of animating naked chicks on Post-It notes?

CG: Most of the pictures on the site are drawn from porn sites, some I draw freehand, but most of the time what I scrawl looks nothing like it's supposed to, so I end up sticking the Post-It note to my laptop screen and just tracing it, and doing the shading or thickening up of the lines later. The tracing's really quick to do, and I figured I could just go frame-by-frame through a few seconds of a porno movie in just a few minutes. Luckily, I've got a high threshold for boredom. It takes ages to scan in all the pictures, but with Windows Movie Maker the animation bit is done in seconds. The music is just twee, indie and local bands, whatever's on iTunes when I'm drawing. Once I've got the tune, there's a bit of tweaking to get the music to tie in to the way the people are moving on screen. It's mostly hit and miss, but no one notices the misses.

RC: In theory, these are "just" Post-Its of naked chicks, but it seems they're about much more than that. About a lot of things. Love, sometimes. Loneliness, other times. Sometimes, just snatch. What was your intention when you started the project, and what did you learn from doing it?

CG: It's kind of evolved as I've been doing it. I wouldn't say a journey, just a long list of equally valid explanations.

Just some art project to improve my skills, releasing my creative urges, or a lowest common denominator attempt to build a site that gets thousands of hits a day, the wee squirt of self-esteem you get when a few hundred people look at something you've made, some kind of validation for going to so many porn sites, a last ditch attempt to impress/weasel my way into a feminist/art school ex-girlfriend, possibly some way to make money, the usefulness of having a hosepipe of web traffic to point at other sites and bands I like, or valiantly raising uploaded amateur pictures to the status of art.

I try not to think about the people I'm drawing too much. It feels a little creepy knowing back story: Rachel Aldana with the largest breasts in the UK and her terrifying underage appearance on a UK talk show, Vicky Vette's success breaking into the porn business at the age most performers are retiring, some random girl from Flickr whose photos went 'round the world for months before anyone noticed all the scars on her arm, once or twice when friends have sent me their own photos and I've never been able to look at them the same way since.

When I'm choosing what to draw, it's mostly aesthetic. I'll stumble across an image that's got good composition, or the model's got an interesting figure, but sometimes it's just trying to get balance in the spread of pictures, if I haven't drawn anyone scrawny recently or I've been focussing too much on breasts or bums.

In real life, I'm naturally really shy or a bullying jerk. All my feelings and emotions are dragged behind the tractor of ex-girlfriends. I think drawing is a bit of escapism. No emotional ties to the figures on screen. Crikey, maybe that's why I don't draw faces.

What I learnt from doing this for twelve months is that drawing is really easy, all women are beautiful and no website is going to help me get back the girl I lost. Only geography can help that. The site's pretty much reached the end of the road in what it can do for me.

RC: On the blog, you wrote that you tried to shag 100 girls in a year. Did you succeed?

CG: That's a whole other story from years ago. I think I managed five "conquests" before the heartache and rejection reminded me I'm not cut out for that sort of thing.


"The One of the Reverse Cowgirl" by Chris Gilmour

Monday, March 17, 2008

Fast & Dirty: Interview: Charles Bock


A few weeks ago, I wrote a review of Charles Bock's acclaimed New York Times bestseller, Beautiful Children. Bock's debut novel brings together a cast of surreal characters whose paths intertwine in a search for a missing boy in Las Vegas, the author's hometown. I was curious about the book because I'd read in the Times that the book included a character who was a porn star. At the time, the book was available via PDF on the book's website, so I downloaded it. But I only read the parts of the book that were about porn. And then I wrote a review of the book that only reviewed the parts of the book that were about porn. But after I posted the review, I read the whole book. And then I asked Bock if he would be interested in being interviewed about the book. But only the parts that were about porn. And Bock was kind enough to agree. In this fourth installment of this blog's Fast & Dirty interview series, Bock discusses the significance of pornography in 21st century American pop-culture, the literary research he did to bring to life a world in which strippers dream of being movie stars and pornographers look like Jabba the Hutt, and what makes Vegas America's original city of sin. Of course, Beautiful Children isn't just about porn--it's about runaways and rockers, married love and comic book characters, and the end of days when hope springs eternal. Earlier this month, Warner Independent Pictures optioned Beautiful Children. Eric Roth, who wrote "Forrest Gump," is in talks to adapt.

Reverse Cowgirl: This year, several novelists--including yourself and Chuck Palahniuk, whose forthcoming Snuff focuses on the making of a gangbang movie--are taking on porn in fiction. Why do you think this is the case?

Charles Bock: Fiction writers are addressing pornography because porn has taken up such a prominent place in the culture. Porn can be seen as a reflection of the culture, a shadow of it. Whatever the metaphor, the fact is adult entertainment is a part of America these days, on the list of things that we consume with a voracious appetite. Porn makes the internet run. Is there a straight guy over eighteen who has a computer who doesn’t check out stills of a naked woman every now and then? Guys watch porn online. More than a few women watch it, too. We all know it. Meanwhile, a whole lot comes with this.

Most porn is watched alone so there’s something about loneliness in there. With porn, the act of sex is being done specifically not for intimacy, nor for the enjoyment of the participants, and this is in direct opposition to the traditional idea of sex being the most intimate act possible between two people. So that’s interesting. Then you’ve got the cumulative effect on a person, what happens when you are regularly watching people who don’t give a rat’s ass about one another fucking. Or all the power structures that revolve around male sexuality and female sexuality, which can shift from moment to moment between any two people. Throw in the personalities of who gets involved with the sex industry. Throw in the exploitative nature of most business transactions. Someone who is eighteen now was all of eight when the Pam Anderson and Tommy Lee sex tape came out. So there’s a generation that’s grown up with widespread amounts of porn affecting how they think about sex.

And it’s great grist for fiction. A novel is maybe singularly great for measuring the culture and how people move around in the world, presenting the complexity of questions in good, entertaining, non-preachy storytime kinds of ways. Fiction is also pretty much exclusively geared towards jumping into someone else’s experience, with the goal of creating a level of empathy and understanding between people who might not otherwise understand one another or might not venture into one another’s mental neighborhoods.

Beautiful Children deals with runaway and homeless teenagers, with grieving parents, with a comic book artist in the middle of a career crisis. Hopefully, I can create characters a reader wants to follow, a story a reader cares about, and a big, wide, compelling world for a reader to get absorbed in and move through. Porn is just one part of my novel. My larger hope was to create a love letter for the people left on the side of the road, the people that most of us cross the street to avoid.

RC: How did you create the character of Cheri Blossom, a stripper who ventures into the world of adult movies?

CB: Cheri Blossom is a supporting character in Beautiful Children. Cheri is a stripper who’s had some body enhancements. She’s had breast enhancement surgery. She’s had extra surgery done so, as part of her act, she can light her nipples on fire. She has a weird 3D effect and tattoo in her pubic area--her pubic hair is manicured into the shape of a bull's-eye, and there’s a tattoo on her skin underneath that. As if this is not enough, Cheri sees her life as a movie at times, complete with screenplay. Oh, did I mention that her boyfriend is trying to suitcase pimp her into making a hardcore film? It sounds like a cartoon, but she’s a really fun character, and in truth, she’s fairly complicated. More than a few readers have come away from the book saying she’s their favorite person in the novel. She given pretty much the most generous moment of anybody in the end. A real fave of mine, Miss Cheri Blossom.

At some point, I was certain that if my novel was going to be set in Las Vegas, my hometown, I had to address the adult side of Vegas. In Cheri Blossom, I wanted a stripper who saw herself as a star, who absorbed attention until she took a certain amount of it for granted. But who was also someone who was trying to be a decent person. Who felt love and faith towards someone who was going to fuck her over and would follow him so far down that path. I wanted the reader’s introduction to her to be stereotypical, presenting her on stage in a fetishized, uber-stripper moment. Only, as you advance through the novel, that stereotype would be taken apart, step by step, and Cheri would show all kinds of complexity. For her role in the book to work, Cheri had to be a really strong person. This was necessary so that eventually, when push came to shove, she’d make good decisions for herself and act to save herself. Just as important as acting to save herself, she also needs act generously toward her sleazebag boyfriend in a key moment where maybe there isn’t much reason for her to be generous.

The more I worked on Cheri, the more drafts I did of the novel, the more my understanding of what she had to be evolved, I was able to move toward her, and my writing eventually shaped the really complex and interesting and, well, awesome character that was always out there, waiting to be born and done justice to.

Yeah, there’s a good debate to be had over whether a male novelist can in fact get inside the head of a female character, especially a stripper, or a woman involved with the adult film world. But I never questioned if I could do it, I never asked for permission. If you are a novelist, creating characters is part of the job. Flaubert and Madame Bovary, for example. And to me that's a great thing about fiction; it allows a reader to enter another person's head. It allows a writer to assume the clothes and thoughts and fabric of his creations. There’s an empathetic leap that’s pretty powerful and wonderful there, although the responsibilities of it certainly are large. And it is possible that a man can only go so far. And, admittedly, with an adult film actress this might even be more true. Having said this, if you take Cheri and put her side to side with any recent “stripper literature”--there have been several memoirs in the past few years and there are a number of online reflections about life in the business--I like to think that, at the very least, she holds her own.

RC: How did you come up with Cheri’s crotch tattoo and flammable boobs?

CB: The idea for the crotch tattoo came to me through a few ways. I’d seen some strippers with complicated tattoos running around their pubic area and through the inside of their legs, and I had a conversation with one who had done the first of what was going to be three sessions to fill in her tattoo. That probably made an impression on me. And then there was plot stuff that had to correspond with the idea of a three-dimensional tattoo. Somewhere along the line, I connected Cheri’s pubic area with that plot point.

As for the nipples... Here in New York City, for years there was a stripper who worked bachelor parties and the like. She was sixty or so and her nipples were naturally inverted, and she actually did put candle wax in them and light them on fire. I stole the idea and made it weird, adding the surgery angle. I’ve to this day never heard of a woman actually having surgery to have her nipples hollowed out. In truth, strippers can and do rub a flammable solution on their breasts, and some can do a thing with sparklers. I’ve never heard of the surgery happening, though. And I hope it never happens.

RC: Porn, strip clubs, aspiring sex stars--all appear in your book. What kind of research did you do to bring these characters to life? What kind of research did you do as far as porn? And what about the Vegas strip club scene?

CB: I did lots of leg work for this book, and that wasn’t limited to the adult side of the novel. But for the adult stuff, I definitely delved into that world. My parents still live in Vegas so whenever I’d go back to Vegas to visit them, I’d spend parts of nights at strip clubs, just talking with the women, buying dances and trying to get the most info I could out of the time when they are chatting you up. Most of the time I was writing this novel I was broke and kind of living on the margins, but I always saved enough for the Vegas trips so that I wouldn’t stiff anybody for her time. I never told the dancers I saw that I was writing a book or took notes or anything like that, although I did learn to keep a notepad in my car. One or two dancers and I went out after shifts and I’d talk with them over breakfast or what have you. But when I’d finally leave the strip club or the meal or wherever, I’d sit in my car for who knew how long and scribble notes and phrases to myself, enough to allow me to reconstruct it all later.

I didn’t use one stripper as a model, as I didn’t want anyone to read my book and say, you stole my life. Strippers, runaways, pornographers, parents of runaways, anyone. I just did not want to be limited by the truth of any one person’s story. Rather, my hope was to draw on as much material as I could to create my own real universe and my own characters. Now, of course there were the few strippers who befriended me, and one woman is a lifer in one club I visited, and she kind of came to recognize my face over the years. So, certainly, key phrases and details and maybe a mannerism or five did get absorbed into Cheri. But eventually I learned the terrain enough, I think, to create an amalgam of details and observations, combining it with my own sense of character, my own understanding of things.

Along these lines, I spent a decent amount of time talking with guys who worked in porn shops, getting a sense of their lives. And yes, I visited porn sets, talking with actors, actresses, and the producers. Off and on for a month, I’d say. A guy at one company, whose name I can’t use, let me be a fly on the wall. I’d hang out and talk to people and just kind of ask them questions. To get access, I did have to tell people it was for a book I wanted to write, a book of fiction, and I was looking for color and authenticity, and wanted to get to know this world. Most of the talent and production people were cool about it--porn hadn’t really blown up at that point.

My experience on sets and in that world--well, a lot of it was like hanging out at any job site. It was banal. It could be boring. I wasn’t on set for a tryout or first time video, like the one I depict in the book. I did not want to be on the set for that. But I was on the set for other filming and scenes. And there are vibes and tension going on there that are pretty intense. So much of porn is about power. Depending on who is running the show, a set can really reflect that. There were moments when I saw the bottom line cynicism of the business, and it became really obvious that so much of porn is so bad because nobody fucking cares. They’re fucking fucking films. Fuck it. Let’s get paid and let’s fuck and fuck it. By the time I was done on the sets, I did not want to see another naked body for a while.

I visited sets and started researching the book back during the age when porn was primarily on videotape. After I was done with my visits, a guy from a company where I did the research would send me stuff he thought I should see. I’d also buy tapes. Then I’d go home and watch it and take notes. I was in and out of relationships a lot during this time and amassed a pretty good collection. I watched a lot of tryout, first-time, and faked first-timer tapes. More than any one human being should ever see. But as with so much of my research, I also reached a point where I felt I had a good enough of an understanding of my subject. I’d seen habits and had lists of details, and, you know, those telling moments that give you a real insight. I’m someone who wants the research to empower my imagination, to allow me to tell the lie that was more real than the truth.

Somewhere along the line, I pretty much stopped watching those tapes. I had to. The effect of watching porn that closely is really not good. The effect of being in that world is that it can suck you in even more and send you way, way, way down the rabbit hole.

RC: Why are sex workers and the porn scenes important to a novel set in Vegas?

CB: Sex workers and porn scenes are important to a novel set in Vegas--or at least to my Vegas novel--for a few reasons. One of the ways I used Vegas was as a specific slice of the American dream at this moment. Modern Vegas isn’t just a creation of pop, it’s a crystallization or apex for pop culture in America. The genius of the city is that it has everything you want, waiting for you at every single second. You just have to reach out for it. This includes sex, obviously. If you’re going to take on that dark side of the dream, the omnivorous side of the American psyche, you have to go into the porn world. And in Vegas, it’s a part of the landscape. The Adult Video Awards are in Vegas. You can’t drive down a major street without getting bombarded by billboards for strip clubs and gentleman’s clubs. Jenna Jameson, the icon of modern porn, went to Bonanza High School, which is closer to the home I grew up in than the school I was zoned for and attended. When I understood that I really was going to try and write a novel about my hometown, I simply knew that it had to deal with the adult entertainment side of Vegas.

At a key moment in the novel, I have a porn tryout scene, where there are big, sleazy guys pressuring someone into doing something they are unsure about. I included this for a reason. I have no blanket agenda against porn. In fact, in my novel, I think I probably give a better argument than has ever been presented in a novel before as to why porn is a necessary part of our modern landscape. But the world of porn is a rough, rough business. And I honestly believe that almost everyone involved in it is damaged, usually in some profound way. You can argue we’re all damaged in some way. But let’s be real here.

When you start to talk about the actresses, the women who make their livings in the business, it gets bizarre. You can’t have people you’ve barely met before--people who you know casually in most cases and maybe hang out with but who basically, no, you don’t know--you can’t have these people fuck you, fuck you really, really hard two and three and sometimes five times a week without having some parts of yourself close off or shut down. I just don’t believe it’s possible.

Meanwhile, the straight porn industry--that is, porn bought by straight men--is utterly dependent on women. In porn, women are the show. However, the whole business model, thirty, hell, forty years of it now, has most of the riches going to the middle-aged men who run things, directors and producers and executives. It basically gets down to sleazy men exploiting women. Things might slowly be changing--the big contract girls get paid well, there’s talk about empowerment and porn for women. But those are the exceptions. They always will be. That’s just the nature of the adult film business. And there’s just this huge trail of broken lives left by the side of the road.

None of the writing of this novel was easy. But researching and writing about the sex industry and crafting those scenes were particularly grueling. At the end of the day, my mind would be fucked eight ways to Sunday. It’s hard to explain, other than to say you get desensitized to just how dark it all is, and meanwhile the subject propels you deeper into the darkness, further away from the regular world. In some ways, it’s interesting, because a huge supermarket can be a nefarious and bleak and depressing place, too. It’s not like suburban America is any great wonder. Hell, porn is now a firm part of that America. But the bleakness I’m talking about here is something totally and exponentially different. Something far more impenetrable.

I wrote one draft of a big porn scene while a resident at the Yaddo arts colony, and during those two weeks, the other writers and artists stayed the hell away from me. I was this walking dark evil thing. I’m someone with a pretty large dark side anyway, and I definitely think that darkness is seductive and has its own appeal and its own rewards. But work on this really sent me down down down into pitch blackness.

Still, I had to do it. There’s a straight line that runs right through popular culture and entertainment to Las Vegas, to my characters, to teen runaways, to the adult film industry. They are all connected. Absolutely. Once I understood this was the case, and once I committed myself to writing this novel, I also made a promise that I would not blink. I had to go to the wall and follow the novel wherever it would take me. That’s part of the job. I think I did a pretty good job, and believe that one of the big accomplishments of this book is that it never blinks, and, at the same time, it never loses its humanity and hope for something better.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Fast & Dirty: Interview: The Stripper Hates You


The Stripper Hates You is a stripper blog like no other. This time, this working girl speaks the harsh truths. At 24, this Detroit dancer kicked off her blog with a post that read, in part: "After three years of stripping I decided it's time for me to catalogue every dumbass, numbskull, pee-brain, Napolean, dumbfuck patron of the strip club I encounter." And, she does. When she's not hanging from a pole, she's studying journalism at Wayne State University, and she answered these interview questions from her laptop at the club where she works to pay her tuition. In this latest installment of my Fast & Dirty interview series, I peeked behind the curtain and into the mind of a "Detroit-native pole-spinner" who goes by Josephine Hutchins.

Reverse Cowgirl: Why The Stripper Hates You?

Josephine Hutchins: I started my blog to exact revenge on the douchebags who regularly tried to humiliate and exploit me. There's an unspoken rule that johns and sex workers are supposed to follow: "You don't tell on me, I don't tell on you." As far as I'm concerned, the minute a john decides to push my boundaries or rip me off, all rules are null and void.

My original plan was to post the full name and a description of any jerk that pissed me off too much. Did he try to steal my clothes? Try to get a discount? Try to touch me without my consent? I would document it all on the web for the whole world to see. Perhaps the wife of John X. Doe from Hazel Park, Michigan, is wondering where all her husband's spare cash is going. Oh, look! There's a whole page on the internet about him, a whole page describing what an abusive asshole he is. Busted!

For the past couple years I've been regularly meeting guys at work who think they are the god of all things sexy. But they're not. Most of them are beer-bellied old men who are deeply deluded. My goal was to clear up any misconceptions they had about themselves.

Customers ask me the stupidest questions. Do I get turned out when I dance for them? Do I think they're hot? Do I want them to take care of me? Do I think older men are attractive, because, you know, all women think older men are attractive? I just want to scream at them: NO NO NO! I don't like you! In fact, I hate you! The stripper hates you.

Anyway, after a quick talk with my attorney, we decided that maybe it wasn't the best idea to out the jerks I meet in the club. Go figure.

The blog has since evolved into a place for me to vent my anger. My anger at customers and at the industry in general. I can't really call up my best friend or mom and have a bitch-fest. So, the blog exists. I'm surprised people have responded so positively to it.

RC: Is being a stripper in Detroit different from being a stripper elsewhere?

JH: I haven't worked in other cities, so it's hard for me to say. Most of the clubs--and there's over 50 of them--are located on the gritty outskirts of downtown. The vast majority of them can be found on a stretch of the notorious 8 Mile Road. Most of them are shot-and-a-beer type places with cheesy names and cheesy decor and cheesy managers.

It's hard to work here, I can say that. Almost full-contact grind dances are the norm. They cost $20 a song. They've cost $20 since the 80s, by the way. The price of gas, the price of groceries have gone up since the 80s. Hell, the Feds even raised the interests rates. But has a lapdance kept up with inflation? Noooo. The expected contact sure has increased.

I work in a club, one of the only two clubs downtown, that is located central to GM's world headquarters, Compuware's world headquarters, three casinos, a football field, a baseball field, and a hockey arena. My club is owned by an immigrant with a really inspirational story. A dishwasher to millionaire type story. He's one of the city's most scrupulous real estate investors. He'd purchase old warehouses from the city, barely rehab them, and rent them as lofts. He owns a couple bars, too. I suspect his titty-bar is just a big playground for him. I rarely say this about club owners and managers, but I do have a great deal of respect for him.

Detroit's been good to me so far. I've worked through a Superbowl, a World Series, a baseball All-Star game, several international auto shows, and several Stanley Cup playoffs. I've danced for an owner of a baseball team, several CEOs, an important politician, and some professional athletes. Oh, and I met Patrick Swayze in a hidden bar downtown.

Detroit definitely makes for an interesting setting. It's a man's city, that's for sure. Detroit makes people feel and act tough. You get instant street cred if you're from Detroit. One of the de facto slogans is "Welcome to Detroit, hope you survive." The city can be violent and scary. Some people even allege the mayor hired someone to kill a stripper. I think suburban men think their penises get bigger when they cross over into the city proper. It makes for a unique regional mood.

The whole metro-Detroit region is socially backwards. Divided. There's the Jewish suburbs, the Chaldean suburbs, the black city, the white suburbs, the rich suburbs, the poor suburbs, the suburbs for managers and engineers, the suburb for union members. But everyone--and my club is literally the only place I've seen this happen--intersects at the strip club. For a brief second, everyone is united in their love of naked women.

RC: You've written: "I love stripping. I hate working as a stripper." And you've written that your idea of a perfect strip club would be one with no customers. Can you explain?

JH: I do like stripping. The lifestyle fits my personality perfectly--I maintain some pretty radical politics, I live in a barely functioning city, I might as well have a non-traditional job. And it is empowering. Using something as basic as sex appeal to manipulate people is empowering. Oh, and raw cash is pretty empowering too. Knowing that I could leave work tomorrow with a big, fat wad of cash is pretty damn empowering. Once in a while there'll be a moment at work when I swear the planets align or something. The moments when I'm just on top of my game: when the customers laugh at my jokes, pay me for my time, shower me with singles on stage. I can't describe it--it's a Shakespearean tragedy without the tragic ending. Curtain opens, Josephine kills Duncan, Josephine kills Banquo, Josephine makes BANK. Curtain closes.

But the best part of my job, the absolute best part, is being surrounded by so many hilarious women. When I worked in an office, if too many independent-minded women made friends, we were called "clique-y" or "catty" or "acting like high schoolers." But my fellow strippers and I, we have inside jokes. We know everything about each other. We have so much solidarity--it's absolutely inspiring. There's such a cool range of personalities--over 100 of us--and we all get along and help each other out. As much as I resent stripping, knowing that I get to hang out with tons of cool women keeps me coming back.

Yeah, the dancing part is fun. The music part is fun. The smoking and drinking part is fun. Having over 100 beautiful, witty, and diverse women as best friends is really fun!

But the customers, they just ruin it for me.

I'll be dancing on stage, just kicking ass, and the guys are just staring at me, mouth-breathing, drooling, and, FUCK, I have go talk to those guys? It's so hard to act interested in them. They're boring. No personalities. They voted for Bush and they like golf and Led Zeppelin is their favorite band. They're totally interchangeable. Once you've met one titty bar customer, you've pretty much all of them. Very little variation between them.

And they always disappoint me. Is it so much to expect that people treat me like a human?

Yesterday, I approached a gentleman who looked promising. Nope! Before I had a chance to introduce myself, he smacked me on the bum and asked me if I'd like--and this is a real quote--"to get away from these creeps and let me eat your pussy." I was astounded. This man implied in one sentence that everyone else was a creep but that kind of comment wasn't creepy at all, that I would actually find him attractive, and that my time at work was worth less than my time with him.

Would he say that to a woman in the office, I wonder?

I guess I'd like my job more if the customers had any idea how to hold a conversation. I suppose that's why they go to strip clubs, though, because they don't know how to talk to women. My problem is that I feel like... no, I know... I'm better than the customers. It's pretty pathetic when you have to pay for the attention of the opposite sex.

If I had my way, work would involve lots of dancing and hanging out with my coworkers. The customers would only be permitted to smile pleasantly and hand me money. They'd be fined heavily for speaking their inner-dialogue. Huge fines for tongue waggling!

RC: In one post, you say stripping makes you go a little crazy.

JH: That's a really good question. It's like a chicken versus egg scenario. Was I crazy first? Or did the strip club make me crazy?

After only a year of stripping, I became really suspect of men. No patience for cheesy pickup lines in bars. Oh, and I really can't stand old guys. They're just gross. Beer bellies? Gross! Bald heads? Even grosser! After four years, my preference in guys really changed. I like 'em young now: 18, 19, 20, 21 max. Too young to have been corrupted by the sex industry at least.

I've developed some intense personal space issues. I don't like to be touched AT ALL without my consent. I don't like to be stared at. I don't wear revealing clothing. I don't like to be the center of attention at all. I rarely talk at gatherings. I'm very quiet and reclusive. I just want to be left alone. I hate to admit this, but sometimes I have anxiety attacks. I had one in class last week. I had one on stage two weeks ago. All these guys staring at me. Why weren't they tipping? Was something wrong with me? And my hands went numb, and I could barely breathe, and it was so hard to finish that set. It was terrifying.

And sex. I can pretty much rule that out. I feel like most guys aren't attractive enough for me. And if they are? They better be damn good in bed or sex with them will be just like giving a private dance. And women? Well, most of them aren't gay. Needless to say, my interest in sex has pretty much flatlined, and I've pretty much ruled out most of population as worthy enough to sleep with me.

It's really difficult to articulate, but I feel like my personal worth is literally tied to a monetary value. I work out every day. I weigh 110 pounds. I have a 34C chest. My sex appeal is what makes me money. If I don't stay as sexy as possible, I won't survive. And I'm really starting to resent it. I don't like working out and watching what I eat. There's too much pressure.

RC: On your blog, you wrote about what a semi-indie stripper peels to. What are the best and worst stripper songs in the strip club?

JH: If I had my way, strippers in Detroit would never dance to anything by Kid Rock. Kid Rock makes old guys feel young and hip. It's absolutely hilarious to watch how excited the guys get when a stripper dances to a Kid Rock song. Kid Rock's "Cowboy" is an anthem for the midlife crisis set, I swear. Buckcherry's "I Love the Cocaine" must be destroyed. I know you like to think we do, but most of us don't do coke, guys! Sorry to disappoint! T-Pain's "I'm N Luv (Wit a Stripper)" should die a slow, painful death.

My favorite songs to dance to regularly change. A few I'll never get sick of are: "Add It Up" by the Violent Femmes (it makes me a surprising amount of money), "Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others" (so appropriate for the finicky customer) by the Smiths, "Dirty Little Mind" (when I'm feeling corny) by Jackyl, Rage Against the Machine's "Sleep Now in the Fire" (when I'm feeling political), and "I Just Threw out the Love of My Dreams" by Weezer/The Rentals (for my moog-y moments).

Monday, February 25, 2008

Fast and Dirty: Interview: Debauchette


For the latest installment of my Fast and Dirty interview series, I interviewed Debauchette. I first encountered Debauchette after I found her blog in my referrers log. Since then, I've been a regular reader. Online, she chronicles her life as a real-life courtesan--a world-class, world-traveling working girl. Based in New York, she is a 32-year-old nude model turned fetish model turned call girl turned courtesan. Or, as she writes in the about section of her revealing blog: "I have deep relationships and light relationships and predominantly sexual relationships and a few client relationships and if I fall in love with anyone with any seriousness, I’m sure I’ll need to pull the plug on all this." (And her Tumblr is here.) This is Debauchette's first interview.

Reverse Cowgirl: Who is Debauchette?

Debauchette: That's a good question--I have several pseudonyms, so I'm tempted to answer with a few descriptors for each identity. But I think the most accurate answer is this: I'm a highly sexual woman with a highly compartmentalized life. I date, I have a history in sex work, I keep one area of my life secret from the other, and I write about both. I write about sex.

As a person, I'm a little self-isolating and bookish, which might not come across in my writing. People say I'm soft-spoken. I love libraries. And quiet. But I also have a strong appetite for sexual, sensual, sensory experience, and I have a thrill-seeking streak.

In grad school, when I desperately needed money to bridge a summer between two grants, I considered sex work. It felt like a good complement to my studious, analytical existence, and I didn't see much risk of having those two lives cross. I was also attracted to the idea of doing something that's generally perceived to be socially reprehensible. When I was young, I was part of a guerrilla art collective that broke into buildings and pasted posters with heavy-handed expressions on the walls, and I think working as a glorified whore tapped into that same defiant impulse, the same adrenaline rush. But what started as a form of defiance rapidly developed into a very staid, refined, and surprisingly Zen lifestyle.

Now, I have a pretty balanced life. I work hard, I keep a few clients, I fuck socially. I fall in love. Sex plays a large role in my life, and it always will. And, to my surprise, I'm at a stage in my life where those compartments are beginning to break down. Clients become friends, men I fuck become men I love, and my hyper-analytical bookishness persists undisturbed.

RC: Why did you start blogging?

D: I started blogging as an outlet. Writing has always been a release for me, but when I started the sex work, I didn't want my notes lying around the apartment where they could be found, so I decided to post them online by blogging anonymously. This was a few years ago. Unfortunately, a particularly obsessive client discovered my blog and outed me to the agency I was working for at the time, and this resulted in some pretty terrifying fallout. It was my first brush with the dangers that come with blogging.

After hiding out for a while, I opened another blog for the same reason as the first: I needed the outlet. By then, I knew the risks, I'd experienced the dangers, but writing allowed me to think through the issues that emerge when you have a secret life. I can safely say that if it hadn't provided an important outlet for me, I never would've started up again.

Over time, I've come to blog for other reasons as well. For one, I started to receive incredible emails from people who were reading my blog, people who had very different lives but identified with the things I'd said. Also, I'd come to value having this written record of what I've experienced. I've changed a lot, my life has changed, and my views have changed. And now it's a bit of both for me, a release and a record. In some ways, it's become a way to have a secret life without being so secretive all the time. I can be open--if not to the people in my life, to the intimate strangers who read my blog.

RC: Online, you write explicitly about your sex life. Why?

D: I think it's how my mind and memory work. When I write, I usually want to preserve certain memories, and typically the memories I care about most are the most graphic. Sometimes I feel the need to sift through them. Other times I just want to preserve them.

And I tend to prefer graphic language when it comes to sexual subject matter. Rhetoric and politics are smart, but they often suck the heat out of sex, and I'm more interested in trying to articulate how things look and feel. Which, incidentally, is hard. There's no useful vocabulary, euphemisms are fucking awful, the whole terrain is a minefield of cliché, and very little can be said that even begins to capture the intensity of any given moment.

If I have any goal, it's to write about sex honestly with some modicum of intelligence without obliterating the carnality of the act. I don't know if I'm successful, but I enjoy the struggle.

RC: What is haut-pervure?

D: This is a subject I love. I feel very strongly about raising the bar on all things sexual. My first vibrator was a gift when I was sixteen years old, so when it burned out, I had to go to one of those roadside sex shops stocked with cheap vinyl costumes and dildos with names like Dr. Nasty. I remember thinking how amazing it was that these shops could take something as hot as sex and kill that hotness with a roomful of carcinogenic plastics shaped like clown cock.

I've been glad to see a surge in the area of erotic luxury and design over the past five years or so. Myla's commissioned designers like Tom Dixon to re-imagine the sex toy. Betony Vernon's creating pieces that bring gorgeous form to erotic and sometimes sadomasochistic function. Lelo's coming up with innovative vibrator mechanisms. Paul Seville's doing amazing things to leather. Shiri Zinn's experimenting with precious materials, like quartz and mink. Njoy's wands make me feel like I'm fucking a Brancusi. I see all of this as a very positive trend. Art and sex go well together.

And on the subject of art and sex, I'd love to see porn improve. Here I am--a sex-loving voyeur, and yet most porn kills my libido. The majority is aesthetically offensive and patently moronic shit, produced largely by men who don't know how to fuck. There's no reason for porn to be as bad as it is, and just as sex toys have gone luxe, I'd like the see the same shift occur in pornography.

RC: What has sex work taught you about sex work--and about men?

D: It's hard to generalize. I feel like a ghost passing through the lives of strangers, but there's something very freeing about a relationship that's defined by a transaction. It makes you appreciate the moment for what it is, without expectations. But there are negatives as well, the most obvious being that it can be emotionally exhausting. It's very easy to burn out.

I've always noticed a strong difference between my personal relationships and my client relationships. Men I date are less communicative with me--it's generally a slow process for them to open up. But clients are open with me from the beginning. They're incredibly expressive, so much so that with the majority of my clients, my job is to listen, and sex is just some extension of that attention. This is something that surprised me when I started the sex work. I thought that it would be about the sex, but that's rarely been the case in my experience. My client relationships are often more intimate than my personal relationships.

If I've learned anything, it's that we have a very reductive understanding of men and the male ego. Men are much more complex than they let on.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Fast and Dirty: Interview: Ellen Forney


Ellen Forney is a Seattle-based artist, cartoonist, and illustrator who has a new book out, Lust: Kinky Online Personal Ads from Seattle's The Stranger, from the boys at Fantagraphics. (Her last book, I Love Led Zeppelin, was nominated for an Eisner.) Lust brings together three years worth of Forney's "Lustlab Ad of the Week" series in which she creates comic works inspired by real ads that appear in the Stranger's personal ad section: Lustlab. For the second installment of Fast and Dirty, I interviewed Forney about what it's like to bring the secret fetishes of Seattle freaks to life. Buy your own copy of Lust here.




Reverse Cowgirl: How did you come up with the idea for your Lustlab Ads of the Week?

Ellen Forney: I wish I could say it was my own idea but it was The Stranger’s--they mostly wanted to draw more attention to their Lustlab section. I just loved the idea; I jumped at the job. The pervy content really appealed to me, of course, but it’s also a fun challenge to whittle down a whole ad into one panel. I write and edit, draw, design, ink--a lot of comics-related skills--but then create something almost more like a tiny poster than a comic. I play with lettering a lot, too, which I love.

RC: What's your process like?

EF: It’s hard to say how I choose an ad... an unusual kink, or an unusual way of wording something, or just something I think is interesting. I also try to keep moving around sexual orientations. I’ve only used one female/female couple’s ad--they’re hard to find. Everyone wants to fuck them but they’re never “seeking.”

First, I edit down the ad, and sometimes it comes to me right away how I might treat it (maybe literally, like, foot fetish: draw feet) or I might use some pop culture reference (furry fetish: Chewbacca).

Sometimes brainstorming can seem pretty random and I couldn’t say how I get to an idea. The main thing for me in this gig is that I get to play with different styles and approaches, and I try to make the cartoons different every time.

RC: What's the kinkiest/strangest/weirdest one you've done?

EF: Strangest: hard to say. I’ve learned some things: I’d never heard of “pantyhose encasement,” or a “Sybian.” One woman wanted to watch a very fat woman straining to take a shit on a toilet. A butch dyke wanted to do medieval reenactments with a femme; I thought that was pretty cute. One guy just wanted a woman who was kind of hairy and didn’t shave; I thought that was pretty cute, too.

I don’t do ads that request “discreet” encounters when they don’t want their partners to know, I can’t really hang with that. And I usually skip the ones where women want to be abused pretty severely by a man. I don’t know that Lustlab is the right forum for that, to be honest. I’m not judging but I fear for their safety with some guy they don’t really know--and it’s MY cartoon; I’m the one that gets to make that call. But, regardless, I only have so much room for people who want to be tied up and really submissive. It’s a totally common kink.

RC: How did the book come about? Were there any restrictions?

EF: My publisher asked that I just not include any that showed people fucking, which was easy because I’d only drawn a few that way. The hardest part was dividing the book into categories--I couldn’t cross-reference like the online ads do. And I had to figure out how to categorize transvestites, MTF’s, FTM’s, and genderqueers--I just gave up and lumped them all together as “trans.”

The book collection also includes several interviews with people who used Lustlab. Besides being titillating (hopefully), it shows that the service really works, that perverts do actually get laid. I think that’s an important thing for sexually conservative readers (I consider them “voyeurs”) to know.

RC: Have you heard from any of the creators of the ads you illustrated?

EF: I’ve only heard from a few, but they were really into it. I got an email from one woman recently whose now-boyfriend’s ad was featured in one of my cartoons--she wanted to get a print of it for herself and one for him. I know he liked the ad--he’d left a comment on my blog thanking me for it.

“Lustlab Ad of the Week” is my dream assignment, in a lot of ways. The subject matter is kinky and playful, I have a lot of freedom with the text and imagery, and the size and content are within very strict parameters, which makes it a challenging puzzle. It’s great.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Fast and Dirty: Interview: Peter S. Conrad


RC pal Xeni Jardin was kind enough to link to Letters from Johns and Letters from Working Girls on Boing Boing. In the comments, a reader posted a link to a project in which the artist had turned sex worker stories into comic strips. That artist is Peter S. Conrad, a Northern California based writer and artist whose work has appeared in True Porn and will appear in I Saw You: Missed Connection Comics. I dropped Conrad an email about the project. He wrote back and sent the comic I've posted here. I asked him if I could ask him a few questions, and he said yes. What follows is a short interview and the rest of "Going Back." You can click on each panel for a bigger image. Thank you to Peter for allowing me to reproduce his work here.

Reverse Cowgirl: How did you come up with the idea of turning sex worker stories into comic strips?

Peter S. Conrad: I learned that a very close friend had worked briefly as an exotic dancer. Her family doesn't know, but she told me a few stories. I thought there might be other people out there with something to say.

RC: How did you get the stories from the sex workers?

PSC: It turns out there are online forums where people compare local clubs, customers, laws, etc. as well as exchanging wardrobe and makeup tips and so on. I posted a couple of times on the site explaining my idea for the project, and received responses right away. The community is pretty tighly knit, at least online, so people referred each other to me too. I have not met any of these women in person. I'm not against meeting them, but I think it's not necessary--and it might be easier to tell a story to someone you haven't met, anyway.

RC: How did you create the artwork for the stories?

PSC: As much as possible, I don't want to be in the way of the story. I print out the words typed by the person who told the story and use a pencil to make marks where I think page divisions will go. Sometimes I have to make a lot of cuts, or sometimes I replace a bunch of words with a picture that gets the idea across, so I know I am having an effect on the story, but I use as much as I can verbatim. My goal is to be invisible, because it's not really my story to tell.

RC: What did you learn about sex, sex workers, and/or sex work?

PSC: That it's a job. There are people who hate the work and are tremendously unhappy; there are people who don't hate the work and are not tremendously unhappy. There is a community. There is a lot of diversity among sex workers, in terms of how they ended up in sex work, who they are, personality, everything. It's a mistake to try to categorize sex workers too broadly.

RC: Do you have any plans to publish the series as a book?

PSC: I think it would make a good book. I am considering inviting other artists to illustrate stories so that it won't all be in my voice.